Sitting here working on a Powerpoint Presentation, listening to Pandora and thinking about...HIM. There are just some ppl you NEVER get over and he's it for me. We've had so many good times that outweigh any bad things that have tried to come between us. He still loves me and I, him. No other man will ever compare to him..NONE!! I love him wholeheartedly and without any doubts. No other woman can capture his heart like I have and no other woman can give him what I have mentally, emotionally, physically or spiritually.
Will I pursue the relationship? Probably not because I am on a totally different level than I was in my past. I love him, but I have to live my life. We both want different things out of life. But, he'll always be my one true love...ALWAYS. If I could say to him what makes me be the most in love with him..it would be his loyalty. Despite everything, he's loyal to me and I will remain loyal to him.
If this was another time, I would call him and allow him to call me. When we do have conversations, there is always a pink elephant in the room. I want to say to him, let's try it again and he wants to ask me to visit him or for permission to visit me. I wish I could go back to the 'good ole times' but that is not for us right now. If God wants us to be together...there is no WOMAN on this Earth who can stop it regardless of whatever HIStory she claims to have with him. He's my past, my present and my future. ALWAYS. Damn...I need to download Lalah right about now. LOL Naw...fuck it...I need some Heather Headley right now...cause in my mind, in my soul, in my heart..I will always be his lady.
Smooches, y'all
